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7:45 AM
STRESS! STRESS! STRESS! SUPER STRESS!!
There is this something i always keep telling myself.
Must be numb numb numb, say no to love, kick it aside,
single for life! it's hard, but i believe i can do it, cause
that is the only way that i can protect myself, and not
been hurt again! i know i can do it! :D
6:12 AM
Break down, speechless. totally give up in my life.
12:38 AM
My blog alive again! hahahah! :D be honoured that i blog again, but nobody will know my blog is alive, cause always complain and tell me said that my blog is dead hurry update, but i always said no time, lazy to update! haha! so now i update. cause i got nothing to do now, very bored, that's why i will blog, hahah!
BORING DAY!~ Super pissed with those people doesn't appreciate me at all when i care for them :( angry yet plus sad! haizx. what to do? i also can't do anything except don't care. And don't care for those people again, since they don't appreciate me. right? but as a christian, i shouldn't be like this. yes cannot be like this! :)
i don't know what to write already, too long never write blog, now also dont know what to write! hah. okie. shall stop here. people at least i blog right?
I'M MISSING YOU VERY BADLY RIGHT NOW.
*You spin my head right eound right round, when you go down when you go down down!
6:04 AM
Today feel very sleepy, woke up at 11plus. but still very sleepy.
hahah and it starting raining
weather feels damn nice and cold. then i received grace and dear texts!
dear told me he's at church his mom's office studying asked me whether i want to go and find him not.
so i bathed and take my own sweet time, by the time i reached there it's already 1plus.
okay never mind i waited for him at the canteen for 30mins?!
okay in total, cause he don't dare to ask his mom whether i can join in,.
after 30mins, i went in the room and started talking to him and having fun hahah.
his mom came in and said hi to me, then talking to him.
she asked dear said : " eh marc what's your friend's name?
he said sophia :) hahah! his mom asked us to go for lunch, okay stupid part coming.
we walked to s 11, walked round and round when i was going to order,
he said heh i don't know what to eat, can we go other places, i give him that -.- face!
hahah! we walked to don't know how many places
he come and tell me ahh never mind we go s 11 eat.
yes yes walked all the way back again and started eating and talking!
after lunch we went to 7eleven to buy drinks and his snack, eat so much!
hahah! walking back to church he talked alot of rubbish as usual,
then when we reached church went to L2 to pass his mom lunch,
he got scolded cause he didn't buy his mom's friend's lunch and didn't buy drinks.
His mom asked me to mark his maths paper,
hahah okay then he startdoing his maths paper from other schools.
awhile later the mother came in and asked me whether can help her to do some painting! hee! :D and i went up and helped her.
so fun! after painting, dear came up and started to have fun with us.
heh heh, after that her mom said :"sophia, what time you need to be home?"
i said:"anytime, ya.."
she said:" oh can you call your mom and said you are with me and i'm going to bring you out for dinner and then send you home?"
i said:" orh okay". i went down with dear to take my phone and called my mom and informed her. after calling stupid boy keep pulling my bag and having fun with me,
hahaha!! dear is mad and high and tat point of time, stupid boy,
hahah awww! :D then we went to thai express for dinner with him,
his mom and sister. hee. His mom also asked me quite alof of stuffs. very friendly and nice lady! :D then they send me home! i'm still very full! aww man. ahahah!
well, thanks dear for playing with me so crazily today the whole day! :D
all the best for your papers tomorrow! Os is killer that's what you told me! :D
but after Os you are freeeeeee! rememeber always! :D
Lastly i love you so much and missing you now! we will meet each other soon! :D
so press on my dear marcus! you can do it! hwaiting! :D :D
anyway best tomorrow start working already! heh i don't know why i'm scare! :(
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Okay, my blog is dead, but i shall make it alive now! :D HAHAHA! hmm N levels is like 2week times! hahahha! fighting man! the lord is with us! :D TOP is hot! okay random! :D cause i don't know what to say! heh heh! today naomi and i talked about what ah? i forget already! but we go played with her iphone of different languages, wa it's fun! hahaha! we shall had fun again naomi! :D Well i'm waiting for that day to come! i'm waiting! heh heh, i can't wait, i don't know why! you asked if i will touched? yes i will, i might even cry! hahaha! thanks for everything i don't know how to react on that day! maybe cry! hehhhh. so prepare tissue for me! :D okay i don't know what to write already! hahaha! okay people, fighting another 2more weeks and it's game over! hahaha! we will have party after that! study work and work hard! :D add oil! :D
OKAY BRIDGET THIS IS FOR YOUUUUUUU! I LOVE YOU ALWAYS! :D
Thursday, August 20, 2009
I ran out of the house just now, decide to come home, everyone is worried for me and care for me. thanks people. I just can't take it and just ran out of the house. I came back just want to go youtube watch my boyfriend! top! and like what cheryl and xin ying said don't let my parents get worried for me cause it'a already late. I missed alot of people right now in my mind, feel like hugging them and said thank god that we are best friends that god gave me friends like your that i loved and treasure in my life. I'm contented with what i have now. I feel happy when the laughter that came from my friends, the craziness when talk about korean stuffs or things that are lame and funny stuffs. when you are sad they are always there for you cheering you up without any complains. In this world people always said money is important come first in life. for me i feel that god, family members and friends are important in my life. as well as health no matter what it's important for me. i'll strive hard for my sudies as well and move on in life, by not giving up.
1:16 AM
STUDY, prelims coming very very soon, i want to say thank you to my clique, i just can said all of you are great and wonderful! :D when i'm sad, all of you are always there for me, thanks alot. especially bridget and naomi, you guys stands out for me. i feel touched, xin ying, girlfriend and cheryl talked to me alot abd comfort me, thanks alot. i feel touched of what all of you have done for me, i feel that god gave me the right friends, true friends that i can trust. And the people that i can treasure in my heart always. thanks for being with me when i'm very sad. thanks people! i love all of you.
Anyway I won't be blogging and online till prelims are over. self control. heh heh!
People must study k! add oil!
yeefang, don't worry i'm fine dear, i will see you soon k? missing you too! heh heh. Love you!
sometimes when i missed you, i don't know what to. the only thing i know is to forget you.
5:08 AM
Okay just can said, no one stands you, no one is perfect in this world. wa sounds like i don't treasure the friendship with you, wa wa wa. if i doesn't. do i even bother to ask you, what happened to you and all. you just said ya i'm okay and all. did you even tell me how you feel and all? nah. oh if i do anything then tell me la, what for keep inside your heart. let who know, in the end you will go to other people and said wa lau this sophia i bear her for so long, i never bao. that's is the problem you don't solve with other people. so you expect me to know everything, when someone did worng, did they know in the first place? just open your mouth and say it out la, in the end blame other people! i didn't said i'm have done nothing wrong, you are the one start ignoring me! so now you try to pour out last time's stuffs. how best are you, best of all.
wa said that i badmouth you, wa hello who badmouth who more? best eh now try to push everything to me. great! of cause i do talk bad about people, like you don't in the first place. if you think it's wrong, why did you even join in the conversation? of cause i'm no better because i'm not god! i'm not perfect, beforing saying others say yourself. i also told you so many things to like you have me by your side and all. what if i said i have listened to you all the way, you will said it's bull shit like real you listened to me. then did you even listen to me? when did i even insult your best friends man? did i? have have have!! who is your best friends in the first place huh! i think you are the one that are pretending to love people. please do it with action you know action? not by mouth saying it. HELLO, IF I LOOK DOWN ON YOUR PAST, DO I EVEN CARE ABOUT YOU? AND WORRIED FOR YOU? WA NOW YOU LIKE THAT SAY ME LA, I WONDER DO YOU EVEN UNDERSTAND ME AND ALL, YOU ARE VERY SCARY. I WONDER WHO YOU ARE, SERIOUSLY. MEANS MY WORDS TO YOU ARE MEANINGLESS. HOW BEST IT IS.
When i tried to clear up with you, did you even bothered to talk about it? no right, so what you want me to do? And when i go out with you, you said the more the merrier, you didn't tell me only the both of us, you said ask more people. then i asked la, if not you not happy again. wa in your eyes you said i badmouth, like you don't have hor. never at all. perfect. perfect. if you think i really insult your friends and all, just speak up and tell me la, you keep quiet for what, like i will know and can read your mind, please. just tell la. so hard for you? i'm not doing it fun when i'm straightforward. I just want to defend myself. people do this to me i do back. when must i kept in silent? yah right, hate me then just say out. no need to go one big round and start blaming others hor. i need to wake up so do you.
Okay you are are so called popular in other schools np, cause your look pretty and nice figure. And i'm always the odd one out without knowing anythign, when i asked your what happened tell me leis! you all will said aiya long story. i feel so left out. and sometimes the way your say it makes me jealous, did your even know how i feel. i want to say, later your say i very what again. i have no ideas what to do with it. you only knows how to blame me, what about you? did you even treat me as your best friends in the first place. did you even treasure? no i have the answer now. it's so obvious. you only cares for yourself, well bitch all you want. not my problem, go ahead. I don't bothered anymore seriously, i tried to settle now you making the thing worse. play with me i'll play with you.
4:42 AM
In the end didnt go malaysia, HAHA. but i'm going on august. my mom promise to bring me to. HAHA :D wednesday she's going to malaysia. best, she can go and have fun, i missed simon quek leis heh! D: Didn't see him for soooo long already! okat the last i saw him is at chinese new year!
so people in didn't go ah in the end! HAHA.
Well i started to hate you like shittttttttt. you force and make me to hate you, so our friendship ends here now. goodbye.
12:50 AM
Yes. i want hurry go back to malaysia, i think is either tonight or tomorrow! okay faster please, i want to see simon quek! HAHAHA. :D
Fati son! no more emo, if not mummy will scold you very badly! hahaha.
I'm currently crazy over big bang! HAHA, oh man top so hot can! really very hot, super hot.
HAHAHA. i'm going to watch the show that they have acted with super junior,woohooo. kar yun saked me go watch cause very nice, of cause nice! cause got big bang! :D i'm going to watch now, byebye. :D
6:13 AM
These few days okay before school reopen, you already give me cold shoulders or even ignored me like as if i did something wrong, hello. when you are sad who is with you? and by your side? i don't know who brain was you or whatever. if you want to break friendship with me go ahead. since you don't want or treasure this kind of friendship at all. why must i bother? since you are not care. 4years okay maybe 3years. okay 3years, bold so much, talked so many stuffs together. the hard time we have together, you said we will go through all this together, because i'm not alone. i do treasure the friendship, what about you now? i don't know what is on your mind, i'm not your brain. so i don't know, i asked you why, you keep running away, it's like come on la, it's so damn obvious. And don't think i don't know you asked someone to add me on msn and spy me. wa i no need to know who is that, i'm the one suppose to ask who is the bloody hell that added me and who gave it. you said it's not you. and ignore him, why you have changed so much!! i don't know why, where is the old you? can you come back? really now i know who is the people that i will treasure the most and who's the one i'm not bothered to.
3:50 AM
Someone has passed away today morning. when i heard it, i'm shocked and lost. scary yet sad. girl, although i don't you, and you have added me on facebook like 2days ago. Feel rather sad although you're not my friend. i just hope you rest in peace in the other world. rest in peace dear girl. friends of hers take care too.
After this incident i treasure the people around me more, even more. imagine, your love ones sit,talk, eat with you laughing and playing the next day she's gone and go to the other world. well treasure your love ones. including your own lives. appreciate the people around you. especially when we saw their friends cried so badly, makes me feel like crying and i started to ask myself what if it's my best friend? seriously i will go crazy, scream and cry.
Rest in peace dear girl.
- how i wish you are with me now, fati son. :(
3:24 AM
Okay just finished rushing food studies coursework! bleah. tomorrow deadline, lucky on my laptop. if not dead. :(
Wa today's school. damn slack please, only have pe! HAHA, naomi said if everyday school is like that shiok man, i sure come everyday! HAHA, but won't happen one la. slack like siao man.
but we have fun today! woohoo. talking rubbish and having fun. like in the heaven man. HAHA. naomi teached me some hip hop skills, hahaha very fun and funny! heh heh. oh xin yingggg better come to school okay!!! must come!! :D kkkkk!!
Next week is Ns english and chinese oral. so fast la, then next prelim coming!!
yesterday's dinner is great with SZB! HAHA, good that you update me! HAHA. (Y). We shall have more dinner again. must update me moreeeeeeee! :D
Boy, must take care. must be happy! must smile! your mummy me. will get worried. okay i dont why i become your mom =.= so don't let me worried k? tell me if you are sad!
take care always. be strong, add oil FATI son. I don't want a son which is bian tai. so don't be bian tai anymore fati! HAHA. TAKE CARE boy.
3:05 AM
School was normal today, had fun. can see from everyone! HAHA, okay good.
mr tang said vanessa and joey need to stays at home for 1week. cause they went
thailand. wa! LOL okay. hope to see your back soon!
Mr pang's lessons shiok today! (Y)! just because of the stupid of some stupid jokes
and had fun. HAHA. okay when it's english i guess, we had some talk among ourselves
about our future job. well i told him saying that, my mom said that she wants to reconsider
to send me to shatec school, once she told me. i just feel that i'm drifting apart from bartending
one day by one day the dream is so far apart. i hate it. argh mom please let me go please. i really want bartending! D: if i can't really go, i have to go ite. then i will take outside classes to learn
bartending! okay maybe this will help!
Celebrated cheryl's belated birthday! HAHA, she thought we celebrating for bridget's birthday!
HAHAHA. it's for you dear cheryl! :D And she started calling me bian tai! wa lau why me bian tai man! D: hahah, then me girlfriend and xin yingg we went to eat tau huay! HAHAHA. we started to crap like nobody business as usual! HAHA tau huay damn shiok, chicken wing shiok, pophia also shiok! woohooo! HAHA, yichiban! (Y). :D
Yay! i'm meeting SZB for dinner later! HAHA. :D
- Totally break down seriously, i need your strength very badly now. D;
3:29 AM
Girlfriend, girlfriend, girlfriend. This is just for you. only you!!
I will help you no matter what, cause you are my girlfriend and you
have helped me alot too. here is the list, it may be stupid but it's for your own good!
Number 1 : judge people by appearance is not good!
Number 2 : judge the character ( important ) but no one is perfect in this world. so take note. as long as he is a good guy, go ahead.
Number 3 : He must understand you and you must understand him ( so no rush )
Number 4 : Time is precious, so treasure every minute and seconds.
Number 4 : Don't play one another's feelings, not good.
Number 5 : No matter what results come out. don't do silly things ( don't be like me ) not good.
Number 6 : But studies come first, priority.
Number 7 : Must not affect your studies.
Number 8 : Don't like until get love sick, or whatever sick that one call.
Number 9 : last one, love that person of who is he. cause love is so called a fate, so treasure it.
Number 10 : anything come to me, cause i'll be with you :D add oil.
- Think of it, it really hurts me alot. D:
5:00 AM
I talked to SZB just now. I said i should jump. that's it. i asked her whether she remembered about last year's incident, okay i almost jump. this lady pulled me down. if not i won't be here. then i said can be like titanic, just jump. she said then who is the guy? i said ghost la, no need guy. the new version of titanic. no need guy at all.
Once i made up my mind, i'll do it.
Scar's wound keep reopen, lost blood.
I didn't eat the whole day! I just feel very hopeless.
The light of my life is gone, seriously after today
the light is gone, who can help me find back the light?
- When i'm suffering here, will you even lend me your hands and pull me out?
4:10 AM
Fuck, i can't stand it anymore!!! Fuck. - i'm fucking lost. how. bitch, don't tell me your problems anymore.not bothered and interested, back off.
5:57 AM
Dear Micheal jackson. R.I.P.
- I want rilakkuma bear! a big bear, hehhhhh i want i want i want! :/
I WANT YOU BEAR! COME TO MEEEEEEEEE ;(
2:56 AM
Long last, I am now a senior. I’ve been going through a student’s daily routine for almost three months. At least, we have these three days break. Our very much awaited retreat. My classmates would gladly talk about whom they would want to seat with, what would their baon be, and the things they would want to do. We are all super excited about this. But my thrill falls upon the riding of the school bus.
It would be my first time, but I was always enchanted with its curtains, its mirrors and its seats. Last year, I would stare at it and see my reflection. I was always this awful and in this school grounds I am nothing. It wasn’t easy at all. I would want you to see me but you would not. You have already deserted me, and I’m without help. You have taken miles forward but I am rooted to this.
You rode this bus a year ago. You were seated on the third row near the window. I came to school that early just to see you leave. I was dreaming that you would direct your eyes on me, but you never did. I will be seating on the same spot today. Maybe you are still there. I can live your memories; your gentle face, your sweet smile and your spike hair. I hope a single strand has been left.
The cool breeze of the air-conditioned bus makes me shiver. It was reasonable enough that you’re wearing your pink jacket that day. Good thing I brought my black. If you were just here, our colors would match. Maybe we can talk until we reach Tagaytay. Well, what an illusion! Right now, perhaps you are still sleeping with your college friends in your dormitory and all of you had never known me. I will just spend my time sleeping in the same seat you occupied, after the group’s prayer is accomplished. I am a weirdo and I can just simply do anything I want here. I can be asleep until I reach there.
The first sunlight of dawn then touches me. I was awakened. Now my classmates are all impatient. I can hear them complaining restless because of the long trip. I sigh and get myself silent. If you were just here, what would you feel? Would you complain too? Or would you simply smile at the world like you always do?
Five kilometers traveled. You are inundating my thoughts. You are the same person who left me in bitterness and tears. You are the same person who drowned me to yourself. You did not even learn about any of this. It’s your little actions and graceful moves. It is all it takes to let me live.
Maybe you are now building your busy life. In ways I know not. In ways you know not. There is someone behind you; someone who loved you and someone who still loves you.
You may not even know me, but my love knows you. It will always see you no matter where, when and how. I am a woman and I know it will. I will stand for it. I am a woman and seasons may come, but I will still be this woman. Either in or out of the school bus.
3:32 AM
Today should be having farewell!!
but thanks to swine fluuuuuuuuu. :/if not we will be having fun +cryingg
right 37? D:
Anyway What are friends for? it goes like this :
- I'll always be with you be beside you until the very end,
wiping all your tears away, being your best friend.
Ill smile when you smile and feel all the pain you do.
And if you cry a singlie tear, i promise i'll cry too.
That's what friends for. :D isn't it. i need to thanks alot of people. heh.
well i will THANK YOU PERSONALLY.
Damn my nose very itchy nowwwwwwwww. argh! very irritating! :/
I still got fluuuuuuu D:
Well my heart is empty, whenever it's empty. something will happen. what's going
to happen next? i don't know but there's is this strong feelings coming towards me now.
heh what to do? :/ i just hope nothing will happen.
- Love hurts but sometimes its a good hurt and it feels like i'm alive!
3:58 AM
I need a magic wand, i really need it so badly.I need it to change back the way you are.- I need to shine and bring life into his dark little life.
I got fluuuuuu! D: tsk, i did homework till 6am in the morning! slept at 7, :/
argh can't take it anymore. give me more time pleaseeeeeee. :/
my mom said i can move to americia, sleepingg time or even lifestyle is different from people
when people sleepingg, i'm doing homework and doing other stuffs. when people awake i'm sleepingg. HAHA, i told her there got swine fluuuu. you want me to go there and kena is it?
huh huh huh. she started laughing! hahah, actually meeting xin yinggg today, but both of us too tired! hahah. sleep late loh, same reason! HAHA.
-xin yinggg! tomorrow must go tu lai uh! HAHA, i want to see you so badlyyyyyy. :D
5:17 AM
I like this picture! (Y)(Y)(Y)(Y)!
Anyway Nightmare again! tsk! haizx yo! i really don't want to watch anymore horror movies again!! :/ heh i don't know why eh, is that movie so powerful. did your get nightmare too after watching that show? or FATI keep calling me si sophia! then now all this nightmare coming to me! tsk! watch out FATI SI BIAN TAI! if it's really you! i will come after you! hahaha! oh olivia told me this new horror movie coming out! heh. called orphan! eeee siao, she sent me the peekture! she said scary! i'm going to watch! for meeee, no thanks! i don't want anymore nightmare! so scary! drag me to hell already freak me out! don't freak me out again! anyway school gonna resume la! haizx ya! hopeless already. heh dead, so many people haven't start doing CPA. *shake head* more time pleaseeeeee. haizx. must rush everything, people so lazy keep saying dont want to do aiya later! HAHA. anyway Girlfriend now your turn ah! woohooooo! come true uh huh! i wish you all the best oh! HAHA. but watch out! no matter what i will support you, don't be stress and headache uh! HAHA! (Y)(Y)(Y). oh girlfriend and kar yun better hurry go do CPA, don't drag anymore!! heh. okay i need to reply girlfriend conversation!
- Be good friend is the best way for now. right?
5:45 AM
No matter what it's my choice, i have told you so many times, i said i will wait means i will wait, no matter how long it is, i don't care how bad are you or what stream are you in. no one is perfect in this world except god. i love you cause of who you are. not about your life. why must you be so bothered about this? why why why! i don't get it why. not only you being hurt by long. who does not? if you fall, you must stand up and continue to walk down! if not who will help you if you didnt even help yourself? you said you truly believe that me that will find someone better, better than you! if i found someone better than you, i don't even like/love him, will i have my happiness? no, you just can't get what i'm trying to tell you. why are you keep running away? i just don't get it. it's my choice, i have make up my choice. since i have made up, i won't regret at all. can you just believe me this once? why can't you believe me, you keep saying you scare you will hurt me or even pain to wait for a person. this is life. if you didn't try on anything you won't experience and gain the experience.
6:00 AM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY UH BRIDGET! <33333
Hahaha! now i no need to appear offline uh when i see you online! hope you enjoy yourself today! yes you did i know! cause i didn't went to malaysia! and sorry uh lie to you, cause we want to give you surprise! heh heh! :D okay people! now going to say what happened today!! after celebrating bridget's birthday! stand by and ready to watch "drag me to hell"! woohoooo! Girlfriend good job! you manage to overcome your fear! love you, i hope you did uh! if not next
time got any horror movies i drag you go! hehhh. once we step in the cinema, girlfriend said ehhh i very scare can we go now, i need go toilet! i eh haven't even start yet! chill man! haizx yo!
start already? i keep saying haven't yet like don't know how many times man! finally start uh, she go sophia sophia i want go toilet, i tsk! shhh! then the show getting more scary i go grab and hugged her like siao! and she keep screaming like siao! and naomi needs to say, wai yee control yourself man! you must control! she said no no i very scare! i want to go! HAHA, she damn funny please. Till this part cinema people all silent, this stupid guy behind us said in chinese : lai liao, lai liao, lai liao! wa lau, it should be scary. Me and girlfriend started laughing like shit pleaseeeeeee! wth, HAHAHA. well this show is the most scary horror movie that i have watched! people, be prepared if you want to go watch hor! HAHA. oh oh xin ying told kasturi this joke. cause xin ying asked what movie we watching, kasturi said. oh drag me to hell, she was like wa lau! drag yourself to hell la, don't drag me! xin yingggg, you are the best when it comes to all this joke! i keep laughing like mad la, HAHA you are the best! :D the rest all peektures! heh heh, i enjoyed myself with you guys! oh oh and all is couple la that watching this show! HAHA.
- I respect your decision. i just want to tell you, i'll be waiting for you, no matter how long, i still will wait, wait till that day comes. it's my choice. why i choose to wait, cause it worth me waiting for you.
SIMON QUEK! MY DEAREST SIMON QUEK! ehhhhhh hurry recover soon k? next time don't langa motorbike again la! k? must hurry recover uh, for my sake! cause you know i love you always! forever and ever! don't you worry! hope to see you soon my dearest simon quek!
well, it's still the same, feelings still the same up and down, when all this will stop? i wonder, i took the initiatives to talk to you, but you seems like haizx. i don't know what an i do now.
- abandoned heart-
3:12 AM
SOPHIA can't smile anymore.
SOPHIA lost her smile.
SOPHIA don't know what's the meaning of smile.
SOPHIA don't know how to spell a word called smile again.
SOPHIA wants to say goodbye now.
Goodbye.
What can i do? seriously, you asked me why. i have been asking myself the whole night. when you replied me, i haven't even sleeppp yet. i'm thinking, thinking and thinking and thinking to find out the answer, but i can't find out any. Do you understand how i feel now, the confuse mind and complicated feelings, unless you didn't feel it before. i don't expect anything from you, cause i just want to say how i feel. and you didn't even tell me how you feel, the true feelings. please don't hide or run away. just accept it and tell me the truth. don't care whether i get hurt anot, cause i'm well prepared. if i'm not well prepared i won't even have the courage to tell you. since i have decided to tell you, i won't regret it cause it's my decision.
5:59 AM
DEAD.
Are your words true? tell me, it's you! don't deny and don't run away. i'm talking about you! it's so obvious i'm referring to you! yes it's you! you you you you!! what can i do now serioulsy? i can't sleeppp/didn't sleeppp. keep thinking what should i do now. to stop thinking! how i wished all this is a nightmare, how i wished! you don't even care either. think i'm joking with you right! no i'm not joking with you! don't make me so miserable. tell me a way! i know if you read this, you are going to ignore or whatever! tell me! don't run away.
- sweet told me this:
every face tells a story of a past,
that can bring smiles to faces or tears in my eyes.
no matter how beautiful or ugly your past may be,
the world still revolves.
cause time can't wait for you.
pain will go away,
but to live on,
you gotta be strong.
to hold on to your future.
and you know i'll always be with you!
7:03 AM
I missed you more and more now! arghhhhhhhh. what can i do now seriously? can you tell me? please. i don't know! i don't like this kind of feelings. i think i did text you yesterday night. but where are you? are you there for me? the feeling i have now, it's mixed, empty, confused. totally lost! but what can i do? am i dumb? i think so? missed a person so much where have no courage to tell you i missed you, what if i tell you? what is your reaction? kidding? tell me what can i do that can stop all this pain from me right now? i have no idea, feel lost!
Love is blind, especially with that stupid cock eye.
4:43 AM
Screwed H1N1! D:Again H1N1! again you, you you you again!! thanks to you, 37 farewell is gone! how best it is, why our batch so unlucky! tsk! i missed 37! argh, i can't believe it's postponed!! to when, dec! BEST! so damn long!! and it's after Ns and Os! arghhhhhhhhh why like that. it's so unfair! all your fault H1N1! everyone is so excited about it! I hope it's a nightmare! i hope kit's a nightmare! no postponed please, this farewell is important to me!! D: thanks to you once again! all of us are so well prepared. lucky haven't buy presents! if not have no ideas what to do with it! argh, disaster! our day is gone!!! NP CLIQUE, CAN WE GO OUT SOONNN!? I MISSED ALL OF YOUUUUUUU! D: LET'S GO OUT PEOPLEEEEEEE! D: PLEASEEEE PEOPLEEEEEE! D:
I need you now again, i don't know why i need you so badly now, out of the sudden i missed you, how? can you tell me what to do? i even wonder will you read this, i need you very badly now! D:
1:21 AM
I need you, i really need you, where are you now? i need you, i need your hug very badly! i really need you now, oh mannnnnnnnn, i really need you and your hug!! D: D: D:
I like this picture! (Y)(Y)(Y)(Y)!
