keeping the memories

Anyway Nightmare again! tsk! haizx yo! i really don't want to watch anymore horror movies again!! :/ heh i don't know why eh, is that movie so powerful. did your get nightmare too after watching that show? or FATI keep calling me si sophia! then now all this nightmare coming to me! tsk! watch out FATI SI BIAN TAI! if it's really you! i will come after you! hahaha! oh olivia told me this new horror movie coming out! heh. called orphan! eeee siao, she sent me the peekture! she said scary! i'm going to watch! for meeee, no thanks! i don't want anymore nightmare! so scary! drag me to hell already freak me out! don't freak me out again! anyway school gonna resume la! haizx ya! hopeless already. heh dead, so many people haven't start doing CPA. *shake head* more time pleaseeeeee. haizx. must rush everything, people so lazy keep saying dont want to do aiya later! HAHA. anyway Girlfriend now your turn ah! woohooooo! come true uh huh! i wish you all the best oh! HAHA. but watch out! no matter what i will support you, don't be stress and headache uh! HAHA! (Y)(Y)(Y). oh girlfriend and kar yun better hurry go do CPA, don't drag anymore!! heh. okay i need to reply girlfriend conversation!

- Be good friend is the best way for now. right?

Monday, June 22, 2009

5:45 AM

No matter what it's my choice, i have told you so many times, i said i will wait means i will wait, no matter how long it is, i don't care how bad are you or what stream are you in. no one is perfect in this world except god. i love you cause of who you are. not about your life. why must you be so bothered about this? why why why! i don't get it why. not only you being hurt by long. who does not? if you fall, you must stand up and continue to walk down! if not who will help you if you didnt even help yourself? you said you truly believe that me that will find someone better, better than you! if i found someone better than you, i don't even like/love him, will i have my happiness? no, you just can't get what i'm trying to tell you. why are you keep running away? i just don't get it. it's my choice, i have make up my choice. since i have made up, i won't regret at all. can you just believe me this once? why can't you believe me, you keep saying you scare you will hurt me or even pain to wait for a person. this is life. if you didn't try on anything you won't experience and gain the experience.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

6:00 AM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY UH BRIDGET! <33333

Hahaha! now i no need to appear offline uh when i see you online! hope you enjoy yourself today! yes you did i know! cause i didn't went to malaysia! and sorry uh lie to you, cause we want to give you surprise! heh heh! :D okay people! now going to say what happened today!! after celebrating bridget's birthday! stand by and ready to watch "drag me to hell"! woohoooo! Girlfriend good job! you manage to overcome your fear! love you, i hope you did uh! if not next

time got any horror movies i drag you go! hehhh. once we step in the cinema, girlfriend said ehhh i very scare can we go now, i need go toilet! i eh haven't even start yet! chill man! haizx yo!
start already? i keep saying haven't yet like don't know how many times man! finally start uh, she go sophia sophia i want go toilet, i tsk! shhh! then the show getting more scary i go grab and hugged her like siao! and she keep screaming like siao! and naomi needs to say, wai yee control yourself man! you must control! she said no no i very scare! i want to go! HAHA, she damn funny please. Till this part cinema people all silent, this stupid guy behind us said in chinese : lai liao, lai liao, lai liao! wa lau, it should be scary. Me and girlfriend started laughing like shit pleaseeeeeee! wth, HAHAHA. well this show is the most scary horror movie that i have watched! people, be prepared if you want to go watch hor! HAHA. oh oh xin ying told kasturi this joke. cause xin ying asked what movie we watching, kasturi said. oh drag me to hell, she was like wa lau! drag yourself to hell la, don't drag me! xin yingggg, you are the best when it comes to all this joke! i keep laughing like mad la, HAHA you are the best! :D the rest all peektures! heh heh, i enjoyed myself with you guys! oh oh and all is couple la that watching this show! HAHA.

- I respect your decision. i just want to tell you, i'll be waiting for you, no matter how long, i still will wait, wait till that day comes. it's my choice. why i choose to wait, cause it worth me waiting for you.

Saturday, June 20, 2009

7:36 AM

SIMON QUEK! MY DEAREST SIMON QUEK! ehhhhhh hurry recover soon k? next time don't langa motorbike again la! k? must hurry recover uh, for my sake! cause you know i love you always! forever and ever! don't you worry! hope to see you soon my dearest simon quek!

well, it's still the same, feelings still the same up and down, when all this will stop? i wonder, i took the initiatives to talk to you, but you seems like haizx. i don't know what an i do now.

- abandoned heart-

3:12 AM

SOPHIA can't smile anymore.
SOPHIA lost her smile.
SOPHIA don't know what's the meaning of smile.
SOPHIA don't know how to spell a word called smile again.
SOPHIA wants to say goodbye now.
Goodbye.

What can i do? seriously, you asked me why. i have been asking myself the whole night. when you replied me, i haven't even sleeppp yet. i'm thinking, thinking and thinking and thinking to find out the answer, but i can't find out any. Do you understand how i feel now, the confuse mind and complicated feelings, unless you didn't feel it before. i don't expect anything from you, cause i just want to say how i feel. and you didn't even tell me how you feel, the true feelings. please don't hide or run away. just accept it and tell me the truth. don't care whether i get hurt anot, cause i'm well prepared. if i'm not well prepared i won't even have the courage to tell you. since i have decided to tell you, i won't regret it cause it's my decision.

Friday, June 19, 2009

5:59 AM

DEAD.

Are your words true? tell me, it's you! don't deny and don't run away. i'm talking about you! it's so obvious i'm referring to you! yes it's you! you you you you!! what can i do now serioulsy? i can't sleeppp/didn't sleeppp. keep thinking what should i do now. to stop thinking! how i wished all this is a nightmare, how i wished! you don't even care either. think i'm joking with you right! no i'm not joking with you! don't make me so miserable. tell me a way! i know if you read this, you are going to ignore or whatever! tell me! don't run away.

- sweet told me this:

every face tells a story of a past,

that can bring smiles to faces or tears in my eyes.

no matter how beautiful or ugly your past may be,

the world still revolves.

cause time can't wait for you.

pain will go away,

but to live on,

you gotta be strong.

to hold on to your future.

and you know i'll always be with you!

Thursday, June 18, 2009

7:03 AM

I missed you more and more now! arghhhhhhhh. what can i do now seriously? can you tell me? please. i don't know! i don't like this kind of feelings. i think i did text you yesterday night. but where are you? are you there for me? the feeling i have now, it's mixed, empty, confused. totally lost! but what can i do? am i dumb? i think so? missed a person so much where have no courage to tell you i missed you, what if i tell you? what is your reaction? kidding? tell me what can i do that can stop all this pain from me right now? i have no idea, feel lost!

Love is blind, especially with that stupid cock eye.

4:43 AM

Screwed H1N1! D:

Again H1N1! again you, you you you again!! thanks to you, 37 farewell is gone! how best it is, why our batch so unlucky! tsk! i missed 37! argh, i can't believe it's postponed!! to when, dec! BEST! so damn long!! and it's after Ns and Os! arghhhhhhhhh why like that. it's so unfair! all your fault H1N1! everyone is so excited about it! I hope it's a nightmare! i hope kit's a nightmare! no postponed please, this farewell is important to me!! D: thanks to you once again! all of us are so well prepared. lucky haven't buy presents! if not have no ideas what to do with it! argh, disaster! our day is gone!!! NP CLIQUE, CAN WE GO OUT SOONNN!? I MISSED ALL OF YOUUUUUUU! D: LET'S GO OUT PEOPLEEEEEEE! D: PLEASEEEE PEOPLEEEEEE! D:

I need you now again, i don't know why i need you so badly now, out of the sudden i missed you, how? can you tell me what to do? i even wonder will you read this, i need you very badly now! D:

1:21 AM

I need you, i really need you, where are you now? i need you, i need your hug very badly! i really need you now, oh mannnnnnnnn, i really need you and your hug!! D: D: D: